Wednesday, December 09, 2009
.Wed. 09dec09 . hazy purple .
that spell hits again. cant figure out the root of the problem. was it diet? hydration? psychological? lack of conditioning? metabolism rate? insufficient O2 ? lack of RBC? or issit just the body condition ? i got no idea. it always comes and hit without a reason .
didn really have time for myself the past few days or weeks. Today kind of settled lots of personal stuffs on hands. Tmr will be one of a 'big' day for everyone participating i guess. Anyway tmr will be the first time i wear no. 1. another first time in my 'milestone' .
- Friends -
Some friends are just like clouds and wind,
At certain stage of life they were there,
After which they just disappear from your life.
Some friends are just like a road and track,
They share similar mindset and interest,
As time passes people change and they go seperate ways.
Some friends are just like leaf and branch,
chemistry and experiences make them clique,
some stick around, while some falls leaving a deep footprint in your heart.
the path of fate ?
at every intersection we meet different people.
some stays while some leave.
fated to be friends? fated to be foes? or is it the decision make by one ?
a non sense thoughts and post.
adios
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Thursday, November 26, 2009
25nov09 wed : hazy red
' to achieve perfect fairness in the world is 99% impossible, cause the earth is not evenly round'
some people are just that stubborn, refuse to accept others suggestions.
fairness, complications, responsibility, selfishness, autocratic ....
you wldn understand the feelings of it unless u are the one going through it.
mum's back from india
wants to go oversea !!! omg , alright it's not the time yet
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26nov2009 thurs : rainy purple
First time I experience a child crying infront of me after coaching so long. guess i sld have put to a stop and not trying to get him over his comfort zone at that point of time haiz somemore he's just a 2 years old kid. it's a thin line between comfort zone and learning new things. have to take things more slowly next time. Seriously i need more experience and explorations in handling kids ... *sigh
sometimes taking public transport is good. can rest, can observe things around .
loves OREO CHEESE CAKE !! thanks sis for that .
oreo + cheese = happy
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adios
Sunday, November 22, 2009
nowcast: hazy purple
how i hope people around me didn treat me that well.
sometimes i wonder do i deserve such kind treatment from u all ? i feel bad about it. Something i realised, there are times where i didn know how to repay the kindness that you all have given me. But there's somethings i hope to remember 10yrs, 50yrs down the road, that when i was young till now u all are always with me, supporting me therefore i must not forget to repay these kindness. do forgive my selfishness and stubborness at times. thanks uncle dad, lao sim and mum.
if every kind deed is calculate as +1 then i think i wouldn be able to repay all these kindess this life time.
I guess i have sort of forgive and forget what he had done and the damages he cause to us. things went wrong, and he made the wrong choice. He choose to be irresponsible and neglect this family of his. But it isnt his fault entirely, it's because all of us resent him, isolate him, didn give him a chance to chance. I felt sorry for him, although he did not play his part as father, but still i will play my part as a son.
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people wonder why things have to be calculative. why cant things just go in a simpler way ?
however if things wasnt calculative, the world will be in havoc condition. Everything will just be anything and anyhow. Calculation is also a part of order, and fairness. but to what extend, you decide yourself.
any simple sport match can reveal the reality of the world, the practicality of human. it's ugly somehow.
sometime if life doesnt have any feelings or emotions to consider, things will be so much simpler. but think about it again, will you want to leave in a world without care and concern ?
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Went to Run for Hope '09 , 10km jog with butt. I ask myself what's the reason i am doing it for, for the organisation that organize? for cancer research? for friend ? - i dont know, remain in a blur zone. anyway i guess it doesnt matter.
Just when i am getting numb to the world, someone did something that remind me to be helpful. helpful means helping others we are in need of help, by helping these people their task will be easier and faster, by helping these people they are able to do certain things that are not possible to be done alone. To what extend or under which circumstances should we help, i guess it's up to individual.
bad headache hit again. i cant find out the reason for it this time.
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i need a personality change. a change for the better.
Monday, November 16, 2009
nowcast: hazy purple
this is the problem which i might also face in the future. this problem will only arise in middle to low income family, where money is the green light to go or not to go for further study. I guess that's life. We have to make use of what we have in life and work things out. It's gg to be tough, really tough but i know she will make it because of her determination, hopefully things will go smoothly for her. Take a break, sit down and think of the future, think of what we really want in life and how are we going to achieve it. The future lies in our hands.
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long long week. where there's so much of uncertainties, changes and repeititions. where the only thing to look forward is the time it's over.
tough times like this will reveal the nature of human. selfless or selfish. it's where everyone plays their part to achieve it. 'tough time dont last, tough men do'
make use of every seconds, there will be time for rest .
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Sunday, November 08, 2009
06nov09 fri : windy blue
- K box with sis and bf
- had fav cereal prawn !
do i deserve such good treatment ? i wonder. i really hope the predicted future is untrue. i hope that our siblings bonds will also stay strong and unite.
[dt east][changi]
07nov09 sat : sunny orange
- OW trg . the wave that day was really nice to swim , or issit some sorta psychological effect ?
- didn noe why is there such adrenaline rush throughout the trg ... issit food ? sleep ? people ? weather ? previous day mood ? i wonder ... and for no reason yk is falling in love in doing push ups that day . hmm . strange . - tireness did not appear in my head at all -
- receive 1 x call. quite suprise (big question mark)to hear that he/she is taking off on that day but happy though.
-supper with butt. everyday people die, but how did these people handle death so calmly ? And how did those close ones manage to accept the fact that he/she have to go ? i wonder.
[sentosa][bdk 85]
08nov09 sun : leafy green
- nutrilite jog, stated 4.5k but i feel that it's much lesser. happen to see my sispec buddy there ! yup it's coincidence, kept knocking onto him this week, twice i guess.
- library. books tonnes of books but only restricted to 4 .
- cant resist the temptation of the chicken chop ...
[expo 3] [tamp]
Monday, November 02, 2009
leave leave off off long rest week
31st Oct (Sat)
- dislike the term 'china man', pls don use names like that just because people 'ang mo' is way belows u all.
- i guess that's the problems when people from all walks of life comes together. the tendency to look down or dislike one another. i guess education does plays a part in making friends ?
- rain rain rain
hate it when i have to ride my bike under the rain, esp jus after washing !!
- but no choice, took leave for the RFH runner pack collection
- went through erp gantry without cashcard.
-almost lost in the process but thanks to 'butt's moving gps'.
[regent][sgh]
1st Nov (Sun)
- went to pray
- have a fulfilling lunch with bro at the Tanjong Pagar hawker , nice traditional wanton mee (the tomato sauce type), with soya drink and a plate of cai tou gue wooOOoo that's heaven !
- went for a 30mins jog
it's that cold stingy feeling agn. well i guess it comes once in the blue moon, hopefully it don come during RFH... haiz
[tanjong pagar] [tamp-psr-tamp]
2nd Nov (Mon)
- went swimming with bro
haha he is learning butterfly ! ok la, consider very good since his 2nd time practising =)
- Rotting at home watching (general hospital drama) nice !
- nice chat with vonn, thanks =)
[tamp SC][home]
3rd Nov (Tues)
- went light re workout after hours and hours of self motivation ... haha
- went swimming after butt's first prac then had a rainbow paddlepop which i have been missing for soo long ! =)
- met gwp gang, michael birthday =) LT's treat. realise that i spelled michael name wrongly on the keychain. have great time catching up with them =)
[TNCC gym][bedok][bugis]
- wants to live life to the fullest !
- wants to help needy people but but at the same time dont wanna being take advantages of.
adios
Thursday, October 29, 2009
nowcast: dark purple
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Great times with biopharm mates @ JG's 21st =D
[coasta sand PSR F05]
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28oct09
- they heard that i am interested in G, helping me to ask the possibility of getting in. i really appreciate this help. thanks alot.
- now the real problem come. where G vs U.
- my sturbboness and greediness is killing me!
- out with butt.
- watched sister's keeper = nice touching show
- 1st time to iluma filmgrade theatre = quite spacious
[bugis]
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29oct09
- woke up at 8 then went back zz , too lazy to swim
- too lazy to get out of bed
- meet butt for farm trip, bike lesson application, was way late to the meeting time.
- love the sight of kranji 'bridge' area.
- went to sungei buloh instead, nice nature reserve.
- waited in the theatre for the show, but the show never start or play. Left after 20 mins of waiting.
- saw tons of monitor lizard swimming here and there. realise they cant stay in water for long.
- saw some slimmy creature not sure what is it.
- saw squirrels .
- saw lots of birds but unsure about their species/ breed.
- saw the growing cycle of prawn, looks similar to butterfly's cycle to me.
- saw a bird lover with a huge camera with lens width as huge as my legs circumference.
- saw some secondary school kids and some kindergarden children.
- saw crabs and fishes.
- bitten by lots of mosquitoes, applied the repellent but was too late.
- saw a female dogs with 4 puppies, watch them swam past the muddy swamp while 1 was left behind.
- almost walked onto a monitor lizard who is lazing at the side of the footpath.
- climbed 2 tower there. nothing special.
- wanted to took a shortcut back but saw a 'no way out' signage.
-caught in that heavy rain while moving off to next destination, totally drench except the butt area.
- went to jurong frog farm, saw lots of bull frog, booing here and there. saw how a dead frog look like, bloated stiff body. jus like a drown human ?
- went to bollywood - poison ivy for lunch, nice curry, drumlets and the ALOE VERA lime juice ! interesting doors and nice ambience. saw their boss, was a white indian i guess, telling the workers what to do with that stagnant water, laugh at her jokes/ remarks to her workers. she came over to our table smiling at us, telling us her ways of caring for the worker 'i only allow them to smoke 2 stick per day, strictly no drinking for them, it's for their own good.' so that they will save up more of their hard earned money. well i agree - all smokers pls smoke lesser sticks !!
- went TM to get some stuffs. but decided to get another thing for that present.
- pocket is in burning. but i guess it's worthwhile.
- bike's dirty after the extreme wet ride...
- decided to go into G, take a step at a time, when the situations arises then move to solution.
- casting everythings aside, keeping things simple.
don wish to - . see his mum, bro, sis, relatives, close friends, friends unhappy. trouble/ rely on anybody. get into r/s. get fat. get skinny. get agitated/ fustrated. do things that doesnt obey his principles. overspend. pin high hopes. reveal his physical weakness. don wish to. don wish to.
[kranji][cdc][tamp central]
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adios